there’s glory

there’s glory in my bones and it’s breathing heavy while carrying the weight of my emotions.

from dawn to dusk and dusk to dawn it’s singing songs of praise and songs of lament for the new life that I’ve been living

- it’s bubbling up like shaken champagne

still there’s glory

uncertainty

grace

all aching from growing pains

since even my thoughts are numbed by unbelief

and Jesus knows that my heart is filled with questions that can only be felt.

there’s Gospel in my lungs and it’s crying out for more freedom—and a hunger for faith’s flow state

so it sings

glory

glory

glory

to world that wants no kings, much less The King

yet my bones still groan their glory to survive

to dwell

to serve

to live

to die.

k.a

For everything comes from him and exists by his power and is intended for his glory. All glory to him forever! Amen.

Romans‬ ‭11‬:‭36‬, NLT‬‬

Authors Note:

I’ve had a deep longing for something that’s been lost. Maybe it’s creativity itself. I’ve taken on a new identity—a newer version of myself and it’s really difficult to get to know her. I wonder if she’ll work just as hard, or if she’ll love God’s people with the same fervor as before. I’m celebrating and grieving all while trying to make sure I eat at least two full meals a day. I’m learning to push through during the moments I feel like I’ve forgotten my purpose and lost sight of my gifts. But I’ll always say that it’s beautiful—all of it. What a privilege it is to feel and to keep feeling. To keep going and keep resting. My life has been nothing but a series of gratitude filled with questions in between and the Lord has been kind enough to hold it all in the palms of His hands, never letting them fall to the ground. And for that, I will love Him more and more.

Kiana

*the attached photos are not my own*